MY LAST WORDS AS A SISTER
MISSIONARY!!
Nov 3, 2014
I will not have much time next week, if any at
all to email. So this is the last email from Sister Wilson as a missionary for
the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints. How surreal. See
you on November 11th in OREGON!
So this week was pretty good! Everyone is now
making death jokes and asking if I have started packing yet etc. Which is fine,
when they ask how many days I have left I tell them how many days until my
birthday, or until the Temple instead :) But in all reality I am excited to
come home. I am excited to meet baby Gene and see how big Clara has gotten and
hug everyone! Especially my mom :)
Honestly, I thought this mission would never
end. Sometimes it felt like it was going to go on and on and I was stuck in
this phase of my life. Other times it felt like it was flying by and I couldn't
soak everything in!
But in all reality this year and a half has
been quite the ride! Crazy stories, crazy
people, people I love, people
who will be a part of my life for the rest of eternity,
I have found friends I would never have found if I had not come, I have learned
so many things I cant even begin to list them. I have had trials and struggles
like everyone, I
have laughed and cried and felt every emotion in between,
sometimes all in one
day.
Nothing can prepare you for this experience, but
there is also nothing like it.
There is nothing like being able to see
someone's life change completely because they now know who they are as a child
of God. That they have a Heavenly Father who loves them and is so intimately
aware of them, they don't even realize it.
There is nothing like being able to be a part
of a family coming back to the gospel and re-learning the simple truths and to
feel the change in their home as they do so.
There are so many experiences that you don't
understand unless you have been there.
Not always good ones. Sometimes you are out walking around in the rain for
hours and cant find a single person who wants to talk to you. Sometimes people
who you are pouring your heart out to decide they don't want the happiness you
have to give to them, sometimes they struggle and don't make the best choices.
Sometimes you have to step back and realize
that we are all human beings having a mortal experience. Everyone has different
trials, strengths, experiences, opinions and they make choices differently than
we would.
And that is the beauty of it all!
Knowing that we are all different, and are all
brought to Earth to have different experiences, but we are all here to learn
the same thing. To remember who we are as children of God and to learn how He
has given us guidance to return to live with Him and our families after we die.
I am so grateful that I chose to listen to God
when He told me I should go on a mission. I cant imagine not having these
experiences. And I cant imagine how long it would have taken me to learn the
things I have here.
I know that this experience has transformed me
and helped me to become more of the person that God wants me to be, more of the
person who He needs me to be and I have learned much about how He communicates
that with me.
It has been amazing to realize how much the
spirit is in our life's. How much guidance we are given through the spirit and
how much faster we can learn and understand when we allow Him to be a part of
our daily life.
I have learned the importance of going to
church. It all starts with missing one Sunday to go on a drive with the
family, or to do something that is still good. Spending time with family is
exactly what God wants us to do! But there is a time and a place for
everything, and church is a place that God needs us EVERY WEEK. Its a place
where we need to be EVERY week in order to build ourselves up, and to
strengthen others.
Then we need to read our scriptures daily. I have learned from
having scripture study planned out into my daily schedule how important that
is. The days that we miss study and I don't get to read out of the Book of
Mormon are days that could have gone more smoothly or could have been better in
some way. It is amazing the difference that is made in your daily life when we
allow the study of scriptures to be in them. That is something that I will
strive to have in my life everyday for the rest of my life. I have
seen the difference in the families and individuals that are reading and
studying and learning together, and those that are not. Its something you
cannot create. It is something that only comes from a study of the scriptures. And
oh how I have come to love them on my mission!
Also prayer. I cant imagine going through
a day without talking with my Heavenly Father multiple times. I have made it a
goal on my mission to have God be the first person I talk to in the mornings
and the last person I talk to at night. As I have had this focus in my evenings
I have been able to ponder on what I want to talk to Him about. I have been
able to focus on what I really want to tell Father about my day, and what He
would enjoy hearing from me.
I have learned how much He truly is aware of me as His daughter. I know that He is aware of each of us because I have had experiences that show me that He is in my everyday. Which is something I have come to love and appreciate.
I have learned how much He truly is aware of me as His daughter. I know that He is aware of each of us because I have had experiences that show me that He is in my everyday. Which is something I have come to love and appreciate.
Lastly, I have learned how much I love the
Temple. Not being able to attend for the past 18 months has helped me to truly
appreciate what it is like to live so close to one. I am so grateful that we
have a Temple so close to home, and that I am able to attend the Temple while I
am in Rexburg. I am excited to being able to attend weekly. To have that added
strength in my life! That is something that I need and something I am SO
excited to have again.
Overall I have learned that life is hard, yes.
But we can make it harder, or we can make it easier. The choice is ours, and it
is not by doing anything big and grand.
I have learned that it is in the simple, daily
and constant decisions we make. It is in the little things that we gain some of
the biggest comforts and best guidance. Reading our scriptures, attending
church, praying often, and attending the Temple. These are things that we each
NEED in our life. They are things that we think we can live without, and
honestly, you can.
For a short time.
Then things slip, and life gets hard. We don't
have the spirit how we need him in our life and the guidance is lost. It is
when we have separated ourselves from God by not doing the simple things that
life gets harder.
When we give our focus to God, and do the simple things. When we truly turn to Him in prayer and seek His guidance in reading and church and Temple attendance, that it is there!
When we give our focus to God, and do the simple things. When we truly turn to Him in prayer and seek His guidance in reading and church and Temple attendance, that it is there!
That does not mean life is easy when you do
the small and little things. But that means that we have the spirit to help us,
and we are not trying to carry everything on our own.
We learned from conference this past session
that the command "come unto me" from our Savior. Jesus the Christ is
the most simple command that has been given.
Come unto me. Some of the most powerful words
given to us, and they come with a powerful promise in Matthew chapter
18: 28-30
"28 ¶Come unto me, all ye that
labour and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest. 29 Take my yoke upon you, and learn
of me; for I am meek and lowly in heart: and ye shall find rest unto your
souls. 30 For my yoke is easy,
and my burden is light"
Ye shall find rest unto your souls.
Rest, something we all want and need!
My mission has taught me of the importance of
coming unto our Savior! And relying on Him. He is waiting to help us, but we
must let Him in.
I know that this is the gospel of Christ once
again restored to the Earth. I know that God has called Prophets to lead and
guide His church since the beginning of time, and that He has called a Prophet
to lead us today.
I know that Jesus Christ is my Savior and Redeemer. He is my advocate with the Father, and it is through Him that I have been given the opportunity to live with my Father again.
I am eternally grateful to my Savior, Jesus Christ, for His example, love, service and support through my life. I know that He lives. I know that He loves me, and I know that God loves me. With a perfect and eternal love, no matter what we do. We cannot change how God feels about us, we can only change how we feel about Him. And it is through the small and simple ways that we come to know Him and love Him. I am so grateful for the opportunity that I have had to teach what I know to my brothers and sisters here in Pennsylvania, Delaware and Maryland. I know that I have been transformed as I have relied on my Savior and grown closer to God through these past 18 months.
I know that Jesus Christ is my Savior and Redeemer. He is my advocate with the Father, and it is through Him that I have been given the opportunity to live with my Father again.
I am eternally grateful to my Savior, Jesus Christ, for His example, love, service and support through my life. I know that He lives. I know that He loves me, and I know that God loves me. With a perfect and eternal love, no matter what we do. We cannot change how God feels about us, we can only change how we feel about Him. And it is through the small and simple ways that we come to know Him and love Him. I am so grateful for the opportunity that I have had to teach what I know to my brothers and sisters here in Pennsylvania, Delaware and Maryland. I know that I have been transformed as I have relied on my Savior and grown closer to God through these past 18 months.
And my time is short remaining. I
have one week left, and it is going to be a good one. Because I love being a
missionary!
And I will love getting to hug my
mom, sisters and friends in just 8 short days.
I love you all! I pray for you daily!
I can feel your prayers and love, thank you does not begin to cover my feelings
of gratitude, but it will have to do for now.
Love you all!
See you soon!
Much love,
Sister Kindra
Wilson
Penn Philadelphia
Mission :)